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so... okay. um. i might be pregnant............

i thought you'd have gotten a test by now. go get a pregnancy test. and don't freak out. whatever happens you'll get through it

! Wow, that's really scary... I mean, I would be scared. Do you have a plan?

I'm like... Re-grounded. My dad drove by and saw my car at Damon's house. I get a phone call from my mom saying "Rachel,l get your clothes on and come home."
So. No more Damon. At all. My parents said they'll get a restraining order against him. I believe that is totally taking it overboard. The kid has never done anything bad to me or forced me into anything. Whatever.
So I was all depressed and crying, but I just found out today that he kissed this sophomore girl one day while they were hanging out recently. And I am SO pissed because she is really ugly. I'm sorry, but she is. If you're gonna cheat on me, at least do it with someone who is way prettier than me. Seriously!
So I think I'm going to meet up with him tomorrow after I get back from a play in Minneapolis. That way my parents won't know. Then I'll bitch him out and we can "break-up" officially.
I'm still really upset and sad. I did love him. Do?

My mom knows about my cutting and she's taking me to a counselor for depression. Ahh... I don't know. My dad found all of my cigarettes. I'm pissed.
On the bright side, I still get my car! Just no phone.

wow. when it rains it pours i guess.
he's a jackass for cheating. but i can relate to loving somebody who doesnt deserve it. not fun.

Word!
And yes, it's really shitty... I thought for the longest time that I changed him and he told me over and over that I was finally the ONE girl he cared about and that I made him happier than anyone else. BlahBlahBlah, what a dipshit. I know he cares about me, but I do NOT understand how someone can repeatedly cheat on someone they genuinely care about. I just don't have the heart to do that, so I don't understand.
And he will never change and I feel like a complete idiot for thinking he did. He is a magnificent liar.

yea some people wont change. you always want them to and believe they will, but people suck. or some people do.

damn well. i can be honest. my boyfriend and i almost broke up because i kissed a guy on the cheek... it's legitimate reason for him to be pissed, but idk..

and yeah, like for me lately. i keep having thoughts of being like cheated on or just not being as important as i used to be. or that sometimes i think he doesn't care when i know he does. like i guess i don't give him the benefit of the doubt.

idk. boys are so complicated. and they say girls are complicated..ha.

its always the quiet ones wrote:i thought you'd have gotten a test by now. go get a pregnancy test. and don't freak out. whatever happens you'll get through it

This.

And Rachel, I can't believe he cheated on you, that sucks. As well as everything else..

blaaaaah. i'm so bored.

I didn't meet up with Damon today. It just didn't work out. He wanted me to call him at 10, but I didn't feel like it. I'll say I fell asleep or something. Whatev. I wanna talk in person. He's not as good at lying in person.
I've decided I can just hook up with him during the summer when it's easier to sneak around.

OKAY. I need to be done talking about him.

yes. but talking about him is good as well. helps let your emotions out.

urge to kill rising..

alan. what. is. WRONG!

I have nothing to talk about today... Well. Nothing I haven't talked about already. I miss my cellphone, though.

i'm doing my radio show without my trusty co-dj again tomorrow. i think im gonna have 2 of my friends sit in with me though and talk about random shit, so that should be fun.

That is seriously so badass! Oh the random shit me and my friends would come up with...

raaachel wrote:Oh the random shit me and my friends would come up with...

samesies
i wanna figure out how to record my own show and make it available as a podcast

I wish I could listen. Or can I?

if you're at a computer tomorrow from 12-2 you can.
www.wpts.org
or itunes > radio > college/university radio > 92.1 WPTS (the bottom of the list)

i wish i could listen but i work tomorrow from 6:30 - 1

people were just pissing me off at college, i got over it.

Really random night, had to juggle a few groups/bdays/re-union type things. Think i did ok, hope no one is mad with me

So i left and met two druggie guys i know who were like "WOAH what are YOU on maaan" and i was like nothing ive just had a few drinks. And apparantly i was either really tired or on a crazy drug. im gonna go with tired.

got home and thers a massive houseparty going on. got to bed at 3, most people had left. then the doorbell keeps going, and a passed out guy gets dragged in and laid spreadeagle on the floor. my housemate steals my bread, puts it in the toaster and asks me to turn it on, then wanders off.

its half 3 and i dunno whats gonna happen next!

i feel really bad for one of the girls, shes work at 9

i'm not gonna lie - that sounds like so much fun right now

agreed.

It would have been fun if i wasnt so tired! lolz i made a massive egga and toast breakfast type meal at like 3am. in the middle of a drunken houseparty. madness!

Anyway the guy that was dragged in had been knocked out by a punch from one of the guys who dragged him in. good times.

our floor was like a romanian cinema floor this morning.

My housemates keys were found under his car..