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my boyfriend got kicked out of the mall, because he's retarded...

woo absinthe! in moderation...

this week in college is Raise A Grand week where theres loads of stuff on for charity and generally we all do feck all work and drink,giving our spare change to said charity.. except this year and last year ive been sick.. i got a 24 hour bug dealy monday eve and couldnt even handle a glass of orange without getting sick!

im better now though, heading out tonight, michelle was going geting drunk at her friends and then coming out but i dont think thats happening so it may be a quiet enough night, we shall see..

thursday im going to a house where there will be BOTTLES of jagermeister (one is bad enough but this is PLURAL!!!!one!) only thing is ive a 9am lecture the next day...

*phew*

thats all my news

my and my friend got one of our friends a hamster for his birthday. it was cute, but he's highly allergic to it. i feel like an ass getting him it now because of that. so pretty much, he can't have the hamster so his moms is giving it to me. woohoo, i get a hamster. a hamster named sergio.

haha thats amazing!

So, Scotty and I are on the verge or breaking up.
It's not his or my choice, either. It's my parents.
They found out all of the...physical... things we've done because I had to open my big mouth and tell one of my friends and my mom overheard. That's not really why she's so mad, she's just mad because she talked to Scotty's mom and she told my mom that she would keep an eye on us and blahblahblah. So my mom is noooot happy.
Add the fact that my parents highly dislike Scotty anyway because he does things that I would never do, he has horrible grades and really has no future, and they don't want me to be with someone like that. My parents have been really worried about me these past 3 months because of it.
But how do I tell him things like that. They're all really personally horrible things for him. My mom said I can never go there, he isn't welcome here, and I'm not allowed to go places with him. Soo... Things can't really work out.
I feel like SHIT. And hearing him cry is the worst thing I have eeeeever experienced in my entire life.
This is all jumbled together, I can't really explain.
Man I am depressed.

Man that sucks, fook it ye seem good for each other, if ye make each other happy ye should try and make it work. Meet at the cinema or some junk. If you feel strongly enough about it sit your parents down and explain to them how you feel.

if you stick at it theyll have to accept it eventually

Agh, thank you for reading my blah-ness and replying.
This is why it's confusing because I don't even feel like trying and I'm not even mad at my parents for making this happen... So I think that means I would rather break it off.
I know I love him, but I guess I don't understand my true feelings because I'm not really that sad about it.
I keep going back in forth in my mind and I'm so indecisive and it's really not fair to him at all.
Meh.

im sorry dear. that would suck majorly if that happened to me...

i feel bad, adn i hope things work our for the best between you 2.

that really sucks. i hope you guys will be able to work thru this or move on and remain friends.

i'm pretty broke right now -- i've got less than 20 dollars in my bank account and 4 dollars in my wallet -- so i've been looking for a job. i finally got an interview at a pet store (that doesnt actually sell pets) today. so i got directions from google maps and left about a half hour before the meeting so i could get there early. i followed the directions perfectly, but i couldnt find the pet store. i literally drove around the same intersection for 30 minutes and still couldnt find the store. so i call the store and say i'm running a little late, and asked where are you in relation to where ever i was. turns out they're nowhere near where google maps sent me. so i go back to where i think they might be, and i'm wrong also. now i'm 45 minutes late for the interview. i call to reschedule, sound like a jackass. i'm definitely not getting that job. thanks google.
so on my way home i stop for gas. i ask for $20 of regular, get it, and give the guy my debit card. it's declined. i dont have enough money to pay the guy (because of my lack of job). so my mom has to come and give the gas station guy $20.
FUCK YOU GOOGLE. if you had given me the right directions i wouldnt have to drive around for 45 minutes and have to go get gas that i can't afford.

damn that sucks. dude thats why i never use google maps. they always fuck everything up. even mapquest does...

stupid internet...

hey! if you want a job, we're hiring where i work... lol. might be a 25-30 minute drive though....

thats such a bum story. i too need a job. dang.


my friend called me this morning to tell me we had a snow day but i thoguht it was my phone alarm going off so i hung up on him on accident, haha.

where do you work?

and i heart snowdays

i went sledding yesterday!
my hair froze and i looked like a member of slipknot, lqtm.
then we went to my friend's house to dry our clothes, drink hotchocolate and chill. we were gonna go to another friend's house, but that didn't pan out.

this morning i got up, took a shower, and my moms was all "oh hey by the way, you don't have school." oh, thanks mom.

I applied for a job at Dairy Queen. I really need that job, dammit.

I want a snow dayyy... Except I don't want snow.

And I don't even know what's going on with me and Scotty anymore. We haven't broken up, but I'm really annoyed with it. Sometimes I like him and sometimes I don't want to be around him, hahahaha. I'm such a bitch. There's like 4 other guys I want to hang out with and I can't right now.

i'm trying to convince chelsea -- girlfriend from summer -- to work with me again this summer. it's lookin good so far

that would be pretty sweet

im gonna be looking for a job in one of the cinemas here. i know a guy and a girl in one, and half know a manager (but am friends with people she doesnt like) in another.

Also i pretty much randomly went to see jimmy eat world last night, they were really good live.

im not goint to be home all weekend. lame.
i'm going to this place called Hiram and my friend in latin today said i was going to the HYMEN house. haha, i died.

I had dance competition today... We placed 3rd in our division. We totally got robbed, though. Lame.

Scotty and I officially broke up last night. It was kinda sad. But we still talked for another 2 hours on the phone.

i work at sheetz. get paid 8.75 an hour, flexible schedules, etc...

i dont wanna walk home its freezing, we had snow earlier..
on the plus side my punk band might be getting back together and i should be jamming some moosic with michelle and her bassist sometime sooon

I finally have my own car! YAYYY.
Well, my mom got a new one so I get to drive the old one. I don't own it.
But still!

State hockey tournament on Wednesday, I cannot WAAAIT!
But I have to dance at the pep fest tomorrow and I really really really don't want to.

sweet, its weird youose americans get cars so young. still i live 5 minutes from everything here i dont need one.

in other news, blaah. michelle is going through the tests to get into police college, shes almost done. were meant to be going bowling tonight but shes on the train and wants me to organise times even though she still hasnt told me when the train gets in, and she wants food, and she wants to be home early after..sigh.. im trying to do an essay and im getting sunburn so im frustrated.

then college boards party is next monday, the night before our 6 months anniversary and we were gonna go and she'd stay over and we'd have the day together the next day. but now shes got another medical test which sucks major. worst thing is she'll be moving in a few months and its already hard to spend time together and were in the same damn college.. augh

well thats my venting done, im sure itll work out

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my friend made fun of me all english class today because i was sniffling 'cause i have a cold. it was funny but so mean.
and now i can barely walk i feel so sick. uggh.

college boards party last night it was fun but far too normal for my liking

the one controversial guy got a taxi home at 11 cos he was too drunk to get in anywhere and the other half obnoxious guy fell asleep!

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